The most wonderful time of the year

I woke up yesterday morning to Lanes usual morning call from his bedroom "momma!" I shut my eyes again hoping I was hearing things and maybe he would just go back to sleep... nope! So I slowly rolled my tired achey prego body out of bed pulled some sweat pants on and a shirt and walked into his room.....Let me back up for a second here Lane still sleeps in a crib. Not because I wanted him to only because he's never tried to get out and has always been so good in it.... when I opened his bedroom door I was shocked to see that he was out of his crib he had turned his sound machine off and put his soother on the bedside table (yes my almost 3 year old still has a soother at night judge away) and he was starting to take his Jammie's off! I was pretty impressed but a little sad because my baby isn't a baby anymore he said "oh hi mom I got out of my crib and I'm ready for breakfast!" Well alrighty then! Lol we went through our morning routine my dad came to watch Lane for me while I went to the dentist and then we headed to Walmart to finish our Christmas shopping!! (Yup I'm all done minus a quick Costco run on Saturday! Hooray!)

when we got home Lane told me he wanted a tuna sandwich so I made him a tuna sandwich which he refused to eat so I told him it was bedtime.... we did our usual nap time routine I sing him a song and kiss him goodnight and let him in the crib! Wahoo freedom now to finish my Christmas wrapping and get in my workout.... NOPE he climbed out of his crib 9 times I kid you not and came downstairs by the ninth time I was so done that I just let him stay up... he was a miserable turd the rest of the day, wouldn't listen, did exactly what I told him not to do etc etc I raised my voice a lot more than I would like to admit lost my patience and was just in an awful mood. Matt came home late and I just felt defeated and unappreciated. We decided if Lane was going to climb out of his crib we might as well move him into his new room and into his big boy bed! (I'll post photos eventually but we are painting it this weekend so maybe next post it's TMNT themed!) anyways we started moving things around and getting his room all set up he was so cute and so excited he could hardly wait to go to bed! He didn't want me to sing to him which kind of broke my heart a little bit but I did sneak in a bed time kiss and a goodnight and then we left him in his new room in his new big boy bed fully expecting him to get out and for it to be a long night but to our surprise he went right to bed! I had to go in there and peak at him in his big boy bed and it actually made me cry! He's getting so big and so independent and suddenly I missed him and was feeling bad about our not so great day! Toddlers are hard! Being a mom is hard! Being pregnant is hard. Life is hard. But that's what makes it so worth while! If it were easy we would take it for granted! I'm thankful for my emotional, stubborn, adorable toddler every little bit of him 💙I am proud to report he slept through the entire in his big boy bed! He didn't even try to get out! (Let's hope that lasts) he was up EARLY Haha but it's still a win!! He's getting too big I'm not ready!!

Holy 17 weeks!!

3 weeks till my ultrasound AH I can hardly wait! It will be the best Christmas prezzie ever!! I am still nauseas and don't feel great but at least I'm not puking (as long as I take my diclectin) I am starting to get some energy back so that's great! I crave sweets which is so weird for me I'm usually a salty girl! And still can't get enough milk! Lol silly pregnancy cravings. I'm still loving working out and eating healthy and I'm enjoying watching this baby grow! I am patiently awaiting feeling baby move around in there!! Any day now!! I'm dying to decorate the nursery especially now that Lanes in his big boy room! I did some Black Friday shopping in lethy with my mom on Thursday while Lane and daddy watched the cowboys game at grandpa Smiths! We had so much fun and I bought a new stroller and monitor for baby Smith! I'm seriously dying to shop for this babe soon I will know if I need to look for blue or pink! Matts secretly hoping it's another boy because we already have everything! Haha less expensive 😜. Me and my mom had such a great day shopping it was so nice to have some girl time I love my momma!

Over the weekend we went on a mini vacation with friends to Fernie! We had so much fun! Some of us girls went up early to shop and go for lunch before the dad and kiddos arrived! It was so nice! We water slided had a pizza party and water slided some more! It was such a great weekend get away!

Are you guys all ready for Christmas?! Gosh I love Christmas!! I try not to go to over the top but I love giving gifts and writing cards and all that fun stuff! Christmas has become so much more special since having Lane! There is no better feeling than seeing his excitement Christmas morning ahh I can hardly wait to watch him open his presents!! One of my fav gifts to give is writing Matt a love letter for his stocking! Try it your guy will love it! Especially if he's like mine and "has everything he wants" which is seriously hard when his birthday also falls on Che eve!! What are some of your guys's favourite gifts to give? Because Matts birthday is Christmas I always try to go out of my way to make it special and all about Matt! This year we are going to stay home just the three of us well 5 including Dre and baby Smith! And we are going to start some fun Traditions of our own! What are some of your favourite Christmas Eve traditions?! I'm trying to make this year extra special it's his last year in his 20's!! Lol he's always spoiling me so it's time to spoil him back!! Comment with some fun Christmas Eve ideas to help a wifey out!! I hope you are all having a fantastic week!! Xoxo Ashylla

Bump update and this weeks thoughts

15 weeks

Wow I feel like this pregnancy is already flying by! Only 5 more weeks till we know if baby Smith is a boy💙 👶🏼 Or a girl💗! I seriously cannot wait I lay awake at night going through the alphabet thinking of baby names! Soon I can think of just girl or just boy names 😜. I feel like I'm finally starting to get some energy back. Still nauseas and sore but my body is growing a human so that's to be expected! My bump is really starting to make an appearance! I got all of my regular clothes, switched out and boxed up in the garage and made room for all of my maternity clothes!! So bring on the bump!! I am 5 foot nothing so you better believe I will be large and in charge and I will bet you BIG money I will get "are you sure there's not 2 of them in there?!" More times then I would like to admit but hey people are not always the brightest and forget to think before they say such things to a hormonal Prego person... so be warned there is only 1  in there don't you dare ask me if there are 2!
Moooving on

We got hit with the nasty flu bug on Sunday that had us all sick! Thank goodness it did not hit Matt till Sunday night because I could barely take care of myself let a lone poor Lane! Seriously there is NOTHING in this world that hurts me like seeing my baby sick!! He was so helpless and sick! It was awful! Luckily his sickness only lasted till Sunday night he was able to get a good nights sleep and he woke up ready to go Monday morning... Matt and I not so much, but at least he was better and we could both lay around and help each other out! I hate cold and flu season but it really has me thankful for my health and our families healthy lifestyle we are all feeling much better and are ready to get back to normal!

I got all of my Family pictures back from my bestie and they are so beautiful! She is so talented and the pictures made me cry! She captured all of the beautiful moments that I could have hoped for and I will cherish these photos forever. I have been so emotional lately thinking about our growing family. It is hard for me to imagine loving a child like I do my sweet Lane. I am glad I waited for Lane to be a bit older to get pregnant with my next child. I knew there was a very good possibility I would be sick again. And I am. I am thankful Lane is at an independent age, because it is hard for me to be the best mom when I feel like crap all day. I am pretty good at hiding it and at sucking it up and getting done what I need to get done. But it's HARD to be my best self when I don't feel good. I find myself feeling guilty and feeling like I'm not enough. Not doing enough. Not taking care of my family the way I used to. Not being a good enough wife. I'm trying to be kinder to myself. I know there is an end in sight and that I will feel great and like my real self again! I love being a mom and a wife more than anything In this world! I'm so thankful for my sweet Lane and for this sweet baby growing inside of me. I know that it's SO SO worth it!! And I know I'm doing my best so that's what I'm going to keep Striving for. My best even when I feel like crap. I know that if I get my mindset right and take care of my mental, physical and nutritional side of things I'll be happy and I'll be able to be the very best version of myself! Pregnancy is not easy, and many people even struggle to get pregnant. Every one of us has a different journey and different strengths and weaknesses. I'm thankful for my struggles I know they help to make me stronger and to help me appreciated all the great things in my life!! I feel so blessed and thankful every single day for this beautiful life.

Here are some of my favourite pictures from our last family photo shoot just the 3 of us 💙💗💙

So there's this boy who stole my heart... he calls me mom 💙

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They are all honestly so great it was hard for me to choose just a few!! Thank you SO much Kels ❤️

I really don't even want to bring up the dreaded potty training because honestly just when I think we have got it... he goes and gets the flu and was in a pull up for 1 day annnnd we are back to square one.... there is not enough coffee or patience in this world let me tell you!! So far today he has peed on my floor 3 times, pooped in the tub and pooped in his underwear!! Ahhhhh WHY!!! So yes mommy was verrrry ready for nap time so she could take her frustrations out on the m5....

I have often been asked why I workout while I'm pregnant, when it's a perfect excuse to take 9 months off and enjoy it. Honestly it wasn't even a thought for me. Working out has just become a part of who I am. It's a part of my day to day routine and believe it or not I do it because it makes me feel good! I love having energy and being able to move my body and keep up with my 2.5 year old. I choose everyday to make the healthiest decisions not only for me but for my developing and growing baby and for my family and those around me. And NO I'm not perfect I do give into those pregnancy cravings from time to time but I am always striving to do my best. It's all about balance and self love. 

I hope you all have a fabulous rest of your week!! Xo

SAHM life

As I sat crying in my Lincoln Navigator parked in my garage I couldn't help but laugh at myself.

Here I am feeling sorry for myself while I sit in my beautiful vehicle in my garage! Sometimes the best thing you can do is laugh at yourself!

I'll back  this story up a bit.... a day in the life of a SAHM

The time change has actually not affected Lane which had been great! We woke up around 8 which is the norm for Lane I changed Lane into his big boy undies and we headed to the kitchen to make some breakfast. I turned on truck town for Lane while I cooked breakfast. I started the coffee because coffee is life! Then I called Lane up for breakfast we ate and then Lane sat on the potty! Yay he peed!! He is great to pee on the potty but pooping not so much!! It's been such a struggle and it's been so hard because I KNOW he knows better anyyyways!

He went downstairs to play while I emptied and reloaded the dishwasher. Then he came upstairs to tell me he had to go potty but he had already gone in his underwear! Ahh I really tried not to lose it but let's be honest I was mad he was JUST on the potty and I was gone for maybe 5 min loading and unloading the dishwasher!! Ahhh so I have to take care of that mess and then banned him from his Halloween candy for the rest of the day. (I usually give him one every time he goes potty) then he cries I try not to freak out and we go on with our day.

 We snuggled and watched zootopia. I have been feeling LOTS of mom and wife guilt lately. I just do not feel good! I feel nauseas and exhausted all day everyday and it's hard for me to be useful. Anyways we snuggled and watched zootopia and ran back and forth to the potty all day long. Lane is into this NO phase and a let's ignore and not listen to mommy stage so he's been spending time in his room lately. I hate doing it but I would hate even more to raise a spoiled entitled brat! SO I do it! He is always so quick to apologize and give me a hug which is so sweet and almost makes me forget all about it!

Then it's nap time! I put my workout gear on and go downstairs to get a workout in. Then I shower, get ready and sometimes sneak in some meditation, reading and journaling! (Ah my me time!) then Lane wakes up and we go potty and I get supper going he helps we usually have an impromptu dance party and tidy up the house before dad gets home! Dad gets home plays with Lane while I finish supper!

Then there's suppper..... Lane has always been such a good water BUT lately he has given me such grief at dinner time it's seriously like pulling teeth to get him to eat! I was getting so frustrated he had been in his room 4 times and still needed to take 2 more bites I put him in his room for that 4th time and then I put my boots and coat on told Matt he needed to take one moe bite and ran to my garage and got in my car and started to Cry!! I felt so defeated I was mad at myself for getting so upset for not being patient enough for not being good enough and then I started thinking about all the great things in my life and I started to laugh at myself!

 I wiped my tears away drove to rexal to pick up my prescription for diclectin and shopped for a bit i went down every isle and I could feel myself destressing and feeling better. I got to the till bought my items and spoiled myself with some starbursts because momma needed a treat! Lol then I drove home and went inside and gave both my boys a big hug! The rest of the night went good lots of runs to the potty, playing and then bed time while I held my sweet boy and sang him a song I realized how silly I had been and how we are both just learning he looked up at me and said mommy I love you SO much! Yup it's so worth it! Some days are great, some days are hard and some days are awful lol but it's so worth it and I am so thankful I get to be a SAHM it is the hardest but most rewarding thing I've ever done! And come May I'll be even crazier but I'm excited and get come May I'll be able to drink wine again SO I'll be just fine!! Haha mom life is great

Xoxo Ashylla

13 weeks and all the fun that comes with it

13 weeks

     Sleep why can't we be friends?! Restless, exhausted, nauseas and uncomfortable 😣. I honestly don't remember being so uncomfortable and restless this early on with Lane. But on the plus side if I take my diclectin 3 times daily I'm not throwing up!! And with Lane I still threw up every day on diclectin, so I am very very thankful for that! Okay, I am not trying to sound ungrateful in any way. I am so very blessed to be fertile and to be having a healthy pregnancy! I am thankful every single day
to pregnant, but I am not going to sugar coat.... I do not enjoy pregnancy itself. Sometimes my sister and I joke and say we would go through labour 5 times over if that meant we could skip the whole 10 months of pregnancy! And I'm so SERIOUS!! Lol 😂 here's to hoping that I get some energy back in my second trimester. I am so excited to feel baby move and to see baby on Dec 21!! Then the real fun begins!! Shopping and decorating the nursery, thinking about names and all the possibilities ahh we are excited to add to our family 💞

      I don't have any crazy cravings I do crave milk, which is weird because I have never been a big milk person I usually drink cashew milk but I've been drinking lots of milk this pregnancy and I can't get enough of smoothies! I do easily lose my appetite. Sometimes I'll cook food sit and look at it and cannot make myself eat it 🙈. Some days I have to buy lunch! I feel like I can either cook or I can eat... so annoying but I guess that's how it goes.


      I am now at the point where I can't wear my jeans without being super uncomfortable, I am usually in Lulu or sweat pants! I need to invest in some maternity pants!! Anyone know the best ones to get?! Help a Prego momma out! My sisters and I share maternity clothes which is SO nice!! I have
a closet full of maternity clothes! I just need a few pair of maternity pants and I'll be set! So please

comment with your fav maternity pants brand!

      Lane is becoming more and more curious all the time about the "baby" in mommies tummy. He asks me daily if he can see the baby and if the baby can come out lol I try to explain to him that the baby has to grow big and strong before Lane can see it. Anytime we ask him what the baby is going to be he says boy! lol so I know Lanes hoping for a brother! I'm pretty sure Matt thinks it's a girl although he thinks guessing is "pointless" lol he says there's a 50/50 chance haha 🙈 I get asked often if I'm hoping for a girl. I would love to have a girl. A forever friend, someone to get all dolled up and put bows in her hair, a mini me... yup that would be great!! Pink everything 😍😍 lol but I honestly
would be so excited to get another boy. A forever friend for Lane someone for him to fight with and
to look out for! Boys are so much fun and I am just happy for a healthy baby!! I can hardly wait to
find out!!

                                                        Potty training.... I still hate you

    Haha it is getting better!! But it still sucks haha I spend a good majority of my day running up and down the stairs to get Lane to the potty (I guess it's keeping me from sitting on my butt for too long) he usually pees on the potty 100% of the time but I have cleaned up a lot of 💩 .... nausea and cleaning up poop while your smell senses are heightened is really not my jam lol BUT I do it...
He is getting so much better and I know it just takes time and patience! SOON it will all be worth it!!

     Lane is seriously at the funniest age! He keeps us entertained and is always learning and doing new things! We took him skating for the first time last week and he absolutely loved it! I have a feeling I'll be spending a lot of time in the rink in my future! I am thankful every single day for my sweet Lane! He absolutely loved dressing up and trick or treating and might I say his Halloween candy is working wonders for potty training... yes I bribe him to go on the potty lol whatever works right?!

     We are in the process of re doing our spare room to move Lane into! And I'm sure you could have guessed it in ninja turtle themed he is getting excited helping me pick out ideas!  I can't believe that in a short 6 ish months he won't be my baby anymore!! he is going to be the best big brother!!

                                                                      8 years!!
    Matt and I met 8 years ago. Two of our friends set us up at a Halloween party. And the rest is history! It seems like it was just yesterday that we met but then, I can't eeem to remember my life without my Matthew. I am thankful every single day for my handsome hard working man! I feel bad for him lately! I have not been very energetic or productive. I try my hardest to get things done and to keep up around the house, but lately I have fallen short. He has been so great and understanding to help out and take care of me! It has been such an amazing 8 years full of fun adventures, one amazing  little boy and another little miracle on the way! To say I love this man is simply not enough. He will
forever be my always 💙

                                                                      Fit pregnancy


    Over the past year and a half or so I have become very passionate about my families health and fitness. It is super important to me to have a healthy pregnancy! I have definitely had to tone it down on the intensity of my workouts, due to nausea and I get light headed and short of breath very easily. But I have found if I listen to my body and push myself the right amount I can still see progress and feel good throughout my pregnancy! Some days it takes everything in me to get my BUNS  downstairs and rock a workout but I always feel so great once I do! Lately I've been doing piyo 3 days a week and going on my bowflex max trainer 3 times a week it's been great so far.  I 💗💗 piyo and my bowflex and I absolutely love that I can workout from the comfort of my own home!! You can follow my #fitprwgnancy journey on insta @ashyllafitness if you are interested in keeping up with my fitness journey!

                                                                          Nutrition
      It can be hard to get all of my calories and proper macros in when I don't have much of an appetite and when the smell of food can sometimes quickly make me lose my appetite but I am determined to keep it up and help my babe grow strong 💪🏼. I am constantly googling abs Pinterest-big to find healthy Prego ideas or ideas to help with nausea! Thank goodness for the internet! Lol any ideas or tips are welcome!!


"You know all that really matters is that the people you love are happy and healthy. Everything's else is just sprinkle on your Sunday." Paul Walker

Xoxo Ashylla

   

13 weeks and all the

13 weeks

     Sleep why can't we be friends?! Restless, exhausted, nauseas and uncomfortable 😣. I honestly don't remember being so uncomfortable and restless this early on with Lane. But on the plus side if I take my diclectin 3 times daily I'm not throwing up!! And with Lane I still threw up every day on diclectin, so I am very very thankful for that! Okay, I am not trying to sound ungrateful in any way. I am so very blessed to be fertile and to be having a healthy pregnancy! I am thankful every single day
to pregnant, but I am not going to sugar coat.... I do not enjoy pregnancy itself. Sometimes my sister and I joke and say we would go through labour 5 times over if that meant we could skip the whole 10 months of pregnancy! And I'm so SERIOUS!! Lol 😂 here's to hoping that I get some energy back in my second trimester. I am so excited to feel baby move and to see baby on Dec 21!! Then the real fun begins!! Shopping and decorating the nursery, thinking about names and all the possibilities ahh we are excited to add to our family 💞

      I don't have any crazy cravings I do crave milk, which is weird because I have never been a big milk person I usually drink cashew milk but I've been drinking lots of milk this pregnancy and I can't get enough of smoothies! I do easily lose my appetite. Sometimes I'll cook food sit and look at it and cannot make myself eat it 🙈. Some days I have to buy lunch! I feel like I can either cook or I can eat... so annoying but I guess that's how it goes.


      I am now at the point where I can't wear my jeans without being super uncomfortable, I am usually in Lulu or sweat pants! I need to invest in some maternity pants!! Anyone know the best ones to get?! Help a Prego momma out! My sisters and I share maternity clothes which is SO nice!! I have
a closet full of maternity clothes! I just need a few pair of maternity pants and I'll be set! So please

comment with your fav maternity pants brand!

      Lane is becoming more and more curious all the time about the "baby" in mommies tummy. He asks me daily if he can see the baby and if the baby can come out lol I try to explain to him that the baby has to grow big and strong before Lane can see it. Anytime we ask him what the baby is going to be he says boy! lol so I know Lanes hoping for a brother! I'm pretty sure Matt thinks it's a girl although he thinks guessing is "pointless" lol he says there's a 50/50 chance haha 🙈 I get asked often if I'm hoping for a girl. I would love to have a girl. A forever friend, someone to get all dolled up and put bows in her hair, a mini me... yup that would be great!! Pink everything 😍😍 lol but I honestly
would be so excited to get another boy. A forever friend for Lane someone for him to fight with and
to look out for! Boys are so much fun and I am just happy for a healthy baby!! I can hardly wait to
find out!!

                                                        Potty training.... I still hate you

    Haha it is getting better!! But it still sucks haha I spend a good majority of my day running up and down the stairs to get Lane to the potty (I guess it's keeping me from sitting on my butt for too long) he usually pees on the potty 100% of the time but I have cleaned up a lot of 💩 .... nausea and cleaning up poop while your smell senses are heightened is really not my jam lol BUT I do it...
He is getting so much better and I know it just takes time and patience! SOON it will all be worth it!!

     Lane is seriously at the funniest age! He keeps us entertained and is always learning and doing new things! We took him skating for the first time last week and he absolutely loved it! I have a feeling I'll be spending a lot of time in the rink in my future! I am thankful every single day for my sweet Lane! He absolutely loved dressing up and trick or treating and might I say his Halloween candy is working wonders for potty training... yes I bribe him to go on the potty lol whatever works right?!

     We are in the process of re doing our spare room to move Lane into! And I'm sure you could have guessed it in ninja turtle themed he is getting excited helping me pick out ideas!  I can't believe that in a short 6 ish months he won't be my baby anymore!! he is going to be the best big brother!!

                                                                      8 years!!
    Matt and I met 8 years ago. Two of our friends set us up at a Halloween party. And the rest is history! It seems like it was just yesterday that we met but then, I can't eeem to remember my life without my Matthew. I am thankful every single day for my handsome hard working man! I feel bad for him lately! I have not been very energetic or productive. I try my hardest to get things done and to keep up around the house, but lately I have fallen short. He has been so great and understanding to help out and take care of me! It has been such an amazing 8 years full of fun adventures, one amazing  little boy and another little miracle on the way! To say I love this man is simply not enough. He will
forever be my always 💙

                                                                      Fit pregnancy


    Over the past year and a half or so I have become very passionate about my families health and fitness. It is super important to me to have a healthy pregnancy! I have definitely had to tone it down on the intensity of my workouts, due to nausea and I get light headed and short of breath very easily. But I have found if I listen to my body and push myself the right amount I can still see progress and feel good throughout my pregnancy! Some days it takes everything in me to get my BUNS  downstairs and rock a workout but I always feel so great once I do! Lately I've been doing piyo 3 days a week and going on my bowflex max trainer 3 times a week it's been great so far.  I 💗💗 piyo and my bowflex and I absolutely love that I can workout from the comfort of my own home!! You can follow my #fitprwgnancy journey on insta @ashyllafitness if you are interested in keeping up with my fitness journey!

                                                                          Nutrition
      It can be hard to get all of my calories and proper macros in when I don't have much of an appetite and when the smell of food can sometimes quickly make me lose my appetite but I am determined to keep it up and help my babe grow strong 💪🏼. I am constantly googling abs Pinterest-big to find healthy Prego ideas or ideas to help with nausea! Thank goodness for the internet! Lol any ideas or tips are welcome!!


"You know all that really matters is that the people you love are happy and healthy. Everything's else is just sprinkle on your Sunday." Paul Walker

Xoxo Ashylla