Fear

As I sat watching the news yesterday with Matt and my sweet Lane. I heard the words Pincher Creek in Tornado warning turn off the tv and get in your basements. I remember that gut wrenching feeling of panic! I didn't know where to even start I ran upstairs grabbed some snacks, blankets, pillows, iPad, phone charger, TMNT movie, wine (yes wine!) filled up our water bottles, grabbed diapers, and wipes and then proceeded to make a fun pillow and blanket fort for Lane and I to watch TMNT and have what he thought was a pretty sweet party! Matt is on call this weekend so I knew there was a pretty good possibility he would have to leave, and that terrified me, so I just sipped my moscato and snuggled my boy! I remember feeling helpless and scared but desperately wanting to be brave for Lane. So I put a smile on and enjoyed some ninja turtles. I remember thinking of just what I would do if the tornado really hit, I replayed it in my head and tried to stay calm. Soon Matt got a call and had to leave and then soon after that the tornado warning for Pincher was lifted. I remember feeling relieved, but my nerves were shot! I always want to keep my family safe, but there is not much you can do when Mother Nature had a mind of her own!

As I sit here looking out my kitchen window, drinking my coffee and listening to the birds sing. I am so incredibly grateful for my family, and for this beautiful life. I am so thankful that there was not a devastating tornado.  I know I can take it for grantit sometimes, but this morning I am so grateful!

Fear : an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain or threat.

I used to think fearlessness was a good quality to have! I loved the adreniline rush of jumping 14000 feet from an airplane skydiving over Hawaii. It wasn't until I became a mom that I gained so many fears. I now feel awful for my mother for all of the so called "fearless" things I have done. I really hope Lane gets his fathers sense of over thinking and making the right choice!! Lol

I think it is healthy to have fear in your life. My biggest fear is just the unknown, but I know that I have to live this beautiful life to the fullest with the ones I love the most! Life is a gift that is so worth living! So today I am grateful for the gift of the day, for our health and our love! Xoxo