I grew up in a small religious town. I had a great upbringing I always felt loved and I always felt safe. I learnt at a young age right from wrong and how to live a healthy life. I had great values and learnt a lot about God and faith. I was born into the BEST family! I'm The middle of five children and life was always great! I no longer practise the religion I was born into, that being said I have no bad feelings towards that religion! It had a huge impact on the woman that I am today.
I believe in being happy. I'm Believe in being a good person and in doing things for others. I believe in love and in family. I learn more and believe in more things every day. I don't think I need to attend a church or be a part of an organisation to have faith or to be a good person. I spend my Sunday's making memories with my family.
Life is about finding your bliss, chasing after what makes you happy and what makes you the best version of you! I'm happier now than I have ever been. I am so blessed, I have a husband who loves me and takes such good care of our family, I have an amazing one year old who makes every day great! I have the best fur baby and the greatest extended family and friends who love me and support me! Life is beautiful. Stand up for what you believe in, follow your bliss and enjoy your life.
Xoxo Ashylla
Tuesday, 5 May 2015
Friday, 1 May 2015
Lifestyle change
I have always been a person who had struggled with weight. I was always making excuses about
how I was big boned or how I don't have a metabolism like " those" girls. All of these excuses were standing
in my way of being happy. I have tried MANY diets, shakes, work out plans ect but I have always lost the
weight and then imediately put it back on. What I now realize is that if I want to be healthy, if I want to be
fit, if I want to be happy, I have to change my lifestyle FOREVER! Not just for 28 days or 90 days but for
the rest of my life.
I want to feel this way and look this good Always so I am being my own inspiration and I am changing
my lifestyle and I can honestly say it's way easier than I thought it would be. And I'm so excited to continue
my journey to healthy living!
Lately I have had a lot of people asking me about my routine and about the detox that I did and I
honestly think that THE most important thing is FOOD! I have always loved food! Anything and everything
but Matt and I have recently started buying calorie wise condiments and low fat, and just making those
healthier choices at the grocery store. We buy healthy yummy foods! I am always on Pinterest looking for
healthy recipes and I get excited to try new things! I am also a snacker so I have special K cracker chips
and special K treats and also did you know you can buy 100 calorie popcorn! Delicious! It's just making
those healthier choices but still having treats that are better for you! I use the myfitnesspal app and track my
calories and my workouts and I love it!! Along with eating healthy I work out on my Bowflex machine 3-4
times a week and I chase my adorable one year old around! I did a 28 day tea tox and loved it!
I never knew I could feel this good, look this good, and be so happy! I never thought I could do it I
always made excuses and tried to convince myself that I didn't care but I decided to make a change and I
am so glad I did! I am my own inspiration and I am going to continue to be for myself and for my family! I
am now at 135 lbs only 10 lbs from my goal weight!! It feels great!
Xoxo Ashylla
how I was big boned or how I don't have a metabolism like " those" girls. All of these excuses were standing
in my way of being happy. I have tried MANY diets, shakes, work out plans ect but I have always lost the
weight and then imediately put it back on. What I now realize is that if I want to be healthy, if I want to be
fit, if I want to be happy, I have to change my lifestyle FOREVER! Not just for 28 days or 90 days but for
the rest of my life.
I want to feel this way and look this good Always so I am being my own inspiration and I am changing
my lifestyle and I can honestly say it's way easier than I thought it would be. And I'm so excited to continue
my journey to healthy living!
Lately I have had a lot of people asking me about my routine and about the detox that I did and I
honestly think that THE most important thing is FOOD! I have always loved food! Anything and everything
but Matt and I have recently started buying calorie wise condiments and low fat, and just making those
healthier choices at the grocery store. We buy healthy yummy foods! I am always on Pinterest looking for
healthy recipes and I get excited to try new things! I am also a snacker so I have special K cracker chips
and special K treats and also did you know you can buy 100 calorie popcorn! Delicious! It's just making
those healthier choices but still having treats that are better for you! I use the myfitnesspal app and track my
calories and my workouts and I love it!! Along with eating healthy I work out on my Bowflex machine 3-4
times a week and I chase my adorable one year old around! I did a 28 day tea tox and loved it!
I never knew I could feel this good, look this good, and be so happy! I never thought I could do it I
always made excuses and tried to convince myself that I didn't care but I decided to make a change and I
am so glad I did! I am my own inspiration and I am going to continue to be for myself and for my family! I
am now at 135 lbs only 10 lbs from my goal weight!! It feels great!
Xoxo Ashylla
Monday, 27 April 2015
Chipman Family Fairmont Trip
For as long as I can remember my family has had a time share at Fairmont. I have so many great
memories going there. This year it was so great to be able to take Lane to Fairmont and share some
of those fun experiences with him! I have such a great family! We had so much fun and we made such great
memories together! Lane is going to think I'm so boring now without his fan club around! Here are some of
my favourite pictures from out trip!
I finished my skinny mint teatox and I am feeling great! Here is my before and after pictures!
memories going there. This year it was so great to be able to take Lane to Fairmont and share some
of those fun experiences with him! I have such a great family! We had so much fun and we made such great
memories together! Lane is going to think I'm so boring now without his fan club around! Here are some of
my favourite pictures from out trip!
Lane and Levi posing where hundreds of pictures of me and my siblings have been taken here!
Olivia and Lane
Lane loves his grandpa
me and my girl
Avery, Livi and Lane
playing at the park
my handsome boy
Lane and Liv
me and my sweet boy
me and my little fishy
silly faces with my Dexter
somebody loves watermelon
swimming
me and my sweet boy
swimming
hiking in fairmont
love these people so very much
all of us girlies
swimming at the natural hot springs
relaxation at its finest
me and my boy
The Smiths
my whole world
they love uncle matt
love
Our week in Fairmont flew by! We swam, played at the park, hiked, played games and much more, I am so
very thankful for such a great group of people I get to call Family! They are truly the most loving, giving, and
fun group of people I know! Lane is going to miss those crazy cousins soo much!
I finished my skinny mint teatox and I am feeling great! Here is my before and after pictures!
Life is great I feel great and am so happy to be on this healthy happy journey! xoxo
Ashylla
Friday, 17 April 2015
The Smith's
Well I'm very happy to say Matt hasn't woken up numb again! SO we are really hoping he is done with all that crap! An MRI is booked for June 5th so we are (trying to) patiently wait for that day and are hoping that his numbness does not come back in the mean time! He is feeling great and we are thankful for all of your kind words, thoughts, prayers and energy we have truly felt it and we feel like we have the best family and friends in the whole world! We love you all!
I am very happy to say that through the madness I have somehow still found the time to eat healthy and work out! (I think it helped keep me busy and it was something I could control through this crazy scary time) Have you guy heard of myfitnesspal? if not GET IT! It is the best app I have on my phone (okay after insta and facebook...and maybe pinterest) but its pretty dang good! You put in your goal weight, your actual weight, things about your lifestyle ect, and it calculates how many calories you should eat a day! You can scan the bar code of everything you eat or look it up (it has pretty much everything) I'll warn you it can be pretty mind blowing!! But I find it so nice to know what I'm actually eating and if its worth the calories! Also you can log your workouts and if you workout you get extra calories..so you pretty much love working out because that means you can eat more! OH and its FREE! Pretty great right!! If you don't have it get it! You will not be sorry!
I have also been doing the skinny mint teatox. It is a 28 day detox you take your morning detox in the morning before or with your breakfast, and you take your night time detox every other night after you eat your last meal. I have always been a bit sceptical with detoxes but I am loving this one! I feel great and it tastes great! If your looking into doing a detox I would highly recommend doing this one!
We recently purchased the Bowflex M5 and can I just tell you I am in love!! I am not a girl who has EVER enjoyed working out... I have always just done it because I should... But with this machine they are only... wait for it 15 MINUTE work outs!! I'm not going to lie to you Matt and I call it the 15 minutes of hell! But it is GLORIOUS! It is very hard BUT it is only 15 short minutes out of my day!! And it is such a great work out! It just works so well with my stay at home mom lifestyle! I put Lane down for his morning nap at 10 get on the bowflex and I still have time to shower, get ready, and get lunch ready before he wakes up! It is the best!!
We are loving this warm weather because that means we get out for evening family walks with the whole family!! I am really enjoying this new healthier me, I feel great and I am very Happy! That's what life's all about right! I am probably the healthiest I've even been and that feels pretty great... I am now down to 140 Hooray just 15pnds till my goal weight!
XOXO Ashylla
I am very happy to say that through the madness I have somehow still found the time to eat healthy and work out! (I think it helped keep me busy and it was something I could control through this crazy scary time) Have you guy heard of myfitnesspal? if not GET IT! It is the best app I have on my phone (okay after insta and facebook...and maybe pinterest) but its pretty dang good! You put in your goal weight, your actual weight, things about your lifestyle ect, and it calculates how many calories you should eat a day! You can scan the bar code of everything you eat or look it up (it has pretty much everything) I'll warn you it can be pretty mind blowing!! But I find it so nice to know what I'm actually eating and if its worth the calories! Also you can log your workouts and if you workout you get extra calories..so you pretty much love working out because that means you can eat more! OH and its FREE! Pretty great right!! If you don't have it get it! You will not be sorry!
I have also been doing the skinny mint teatox. It is a 28 day detox you take your morning detox in the morning before or with your breakfast, and you take your night time detox every other night after you eat your last meal. I have always been a bit sceptical with detoxes but I am loving this one! I feel great and it tastes great! If your looking into doing a detox I would highly recommend doing this one!
We recently purchased the Bowflex M5 and can I just tell you I am in love!! I am not a girl who has EVER enjoyed working out... I have always just done it because I should... But with this machine they are only... wait for it 15 MINUTE work outs!! I'm not going to lie to you Matt and I call it the 15 minutes of hell! But it is GLORIOUS! It is very hard BUT it is only 15 short minutes out of my day!! And it is such a great work out! It just works so well with my stay at home mom lifestyle! I put Lane down for his morning nap at 10 get on the bowflex and I still have time to shower, get ready, and get lunch ready before he wakes up! It is the best!!
We are loving this warm weather because that means we get out for evening family walks with the whole family!! I am really enjoying this new healthier me, I feel great and I am very Happy! That's what life's all about right! I am probably the healthiest I've even been and that feels pretty great... I am now down to 140 Hooray just 15pnds till my goal weight!
XOXO Ashylla
Monday, 13 April 2015
I really don't even know where to begin... This past week has been one of the scariest, most emotional of my whole life. It's hard to explain the feeling of watching the one you love question everything and wonder if his life would ever be the same again.
Last Saturday, April 4th Matt woke up around 5 and noticed that his left arm was asleep. He had figured that he had just slept funny but then quickly realised he was sleeping on his back and that his left leg was also numb. He then tried to grab his phone to check the time and quickly realised he had no function in his left hand. He was of course very worried so he stumbled to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and saw that his whole left side of his face was also numb and that it appeared to be drooping. Of course at this point he was terrified he started to google his symptoms, which only made things worse. He said he then tried to talk to our Dog Dre and he said he knew what he wanted to say but all that would come out were mumbles. THEN he decided to wake me up. I remember not even being able to comprehend what he was saying to me.. He was 27 years old and healthy could he possibly be having a stroke?! I got dressed as quickly as I could woke up Lane and we rushed to Pincher Emerge.
He was able to walk on his left leg and said he was started to get his feeling back. We walked up to the emergency entrance and I looked over and realised Matt had veered off and was trying to walk into the ambulance entrance. I called out for him and did re correct and come through the right door but |I could tell he was very disoriented.We got emitted very quickly and the nurse started to run lots of different tests, did some blood work and we had a doctor with us very quickly. Nothing was showing up but the doctor was still very concerned with his symptoms and she called Lethbridge and they decided to send him by ambulance to the Lethbridge Hospital for a CT scan.
That drive to Lethbridge, with my baby in the back seat just hoping and praying that Matt was going to be okay was one of the hardest and longest drives of my life. There were many tears and panic attacks along the way but somehow \I managed to get us there safely! When I got to the hospital my parents and Matt's dad and step mom were there with my sweet heart waiting for the results from his CT. By this time all of his feeling was back and he was feeling good other than a headache, but he had been experiencing head aches all week.
The doctor came out to tell us that his CT scan came back clean. There was nothing irregular that they could see from the CT. Of course we were all soo relieved. We went into the room and looked at the scans. The doctor then told us Matt was Fine and that we could just go home. So we decided to go out for breakfast to celebrate. As we were at breakfast I couldn't help but feel very unsettled. I didn't feel right just letting something like this go? I felt like we really had no answers what so ever and I was terrified it might happen again.
We talked to our families and we all decided that Matt should get in to see the doctor on Monday and try to get some answers. Matt's family doctor was out of town so we saw a doctor around 4:30 on Monday. We explained everything that was going on and she agreed that we needed to do some further testings, and get him in for an MRI. She told us that first thing Tuesday morning she would send out an urgent request to a neurologist so we could get him in as soon as possible to find out what was going on. She told us that Matt should not be working or driving until we had clearance from a neurologist. She told us to come in the next day to get a bunch of blood work done. We went home feeling confident that we were in the right hands and that everything was going to get taken care of.We went in the next day and Matt got his blood work done. two days went by and we never heard anything from a neurologist or the clinic about any appointment date.
We were trying to be patient so I didn't call to bug them. Thursday morning Matt woke me up at 4:30 it was happening again so we quickly got packed up and went to emerge again. They ran the tests and still nothing was showing up. The doctor called Lethbridge and they told us there was nothing they could do? We explained our situation to the Doctor and that we were on an urgent request to see a neurologist and the doctor told us she would make sure that was being taken care of and that she was also going to get Matt on a cancellation list for an MRI. She told us that the clinic would call us first thing the next morning to follow up. So we went home and tried to get some sleep.
The clinic called and told us that nothing had been done regarding Matt seeing a neurologist the doctor never did send and urgent referral?! (are you kidding me) so that was 2 full days waisted! we weren't even on the neurologists radar. Then she told us she would make sure to send it off and that she would get him booked for an MRI and on a cancellation list and let us know. We went in and got Matt's x ray done to make sure he didn't have any metal in his eye so that he could get an MRI (he used to do welding) and then we went home.
We still hadn't heard anything from a neurologist or the clinic regarding even a date for anything so at 1 o clock on Friday i called up to the clinic again. The unit clerk I talked to told me that yes the referral had been sent to the neurologist but that nobody had followed up on it. So she told me she would for me before the end of the day. I then asked about the MRI she told me she couldn't find anything about an MRI?! (seriously?!?) but she promised me she would get him on the cancellation list and work on getting him an appointment she told me she would make sure to call me by the end of the day to let me know the progress.. She NEVER called me.
For any of you that really know me, it takes a LOT to make me mad. I am furious! we feel like nobody is taking this seriously and that nobody is taking responsibility for this. We keep being told things are urgent and are going to get done but they continue to not get done.
Friday night we drove up to High River to Matt's moms house, we stayed the night and Matt went into Calgary emerge Saturday morning. It took all day but he was able to see the proper people and to properly be taken care of. They did a contrast CT and still nothing is showing up. We talked with the neurologist and he is very confident that Matt is going to be just fine. He cannot say what is wrong but he is more than confident that Matt can go back to work and that he can drive. We were both very happy with this news and so happy that they were able to do the contrast CT to rule out some very scary things that this could have been! The Neurologist still wants Matt to get an MRI to make sure its not something the CT's missed. Unfortunately we may never know what went on. And hopefully it goes away. I honestly don't like those answers but if that's coming from a specialist there is nothing more we can do about it at this point. So now we wait until Matt can get in for an MRI and we hope that nothing is wrong!
My 25th birthday did not go as planned but I told Matt the best birthday present he could give me was to sit in the Foothills ER and get some answers, so after the full day in emerge we all went out to celebrate my birthday at the Keg. The best birthday present I received was hearing the neurologist say he could rule out aneurysm, stroke, cancer, bleeding etc. And that he was fairly certain Matt would be just fine. And that everything possible right now had been done. This meant our world was not going to get turned upside down and that my sweet heart could get back to doing what he loves.
Thank you so much to all of you for your prayers, thoughts, and kind words I did truly feel them and appreciated them so much! I will keep you updated with further news as we know but for now we are just so relieved and trying to enjoy this great news!! xoxo Ashylla
Last Saturday, April 4th Matt woke up around 5 and noticed that his left arm was asleep. He had figured that he had just slept funny but then quickly realised he was sleeping on his back and that his left leg was also numb. He then tried to grab his phone to check the time and quickly realised he had no function in his left hand. He was of course very worried so he stumbled to the bathroom and looked in the mirror and saw that his whole left side of his face was also numb and that it appeared to be drooping. Of course at this point he was terrified he started to google his symptoms, which only made things worse. He said he then tried to talk to our Dog Dre and he said he knew what he wanted to say but all that would come out were mumbles. THEN he decided to wake me up. I remember not even being able to comprehend what he was saying to me.. He was 27 years old and healthy could he possibly be having a stroke?! I got dressed as quickly as I could woke up Lane and we rushed to Pincher Emerge.
He was able to walk on his left leg and said he was started to get his feeling back. We walked up to the emergency entrance and I looked over and realised Matt had veered off and was trying to walk into the ambulance entrance. I called out for him and did re correct and come through the right door but |I could tell he was very disoriented.We got emitted very quickly and the nurse started to run lots of different tests, did some blood work and we had a doctor with us very quickly. Nothing was showing up but the doctor was still very concerned with his symptoms and she called Lethbridge and they decided to send him by ambulance to the Lethbridge Hospital for a CT scan.
That drive to Lethbridge, with my baby in the back seat just hoping and praying that Matt was going to be okay was one of the hardest and longest drives of my life. There were many tears and panic attacks along the way but somehow \I managed to get us there safely! When I got to the hospital my parents and Matt's dad and step mom were there with my sweet heart waiting for the results from his CT. By this time all of his feeling was back and he was feeling good other than a headache, but he had been experiencing head aches all week.
The doctor came out to tell us that his CT scan came back clean. There was nothing irregular that they could see from the CT. Of course we were all soo relieved. We went into the room and looked at the scans. The doctor then told us Matt was Fine and that we could just go home. So we decided to go out for breakfast to celebrate. As we were at breakfast I couldn't help but feel very unsettled. I didn't feel right just letting something like this go? I felt like we really had no answers what so ever and I was terrified it might happen again.
We talked to our families and we all decided that Matt should get in to see the doctor on Monday and try to get some answers. Matt's family doctor was out of town so we saw a doctor around 4:30 on Monday. We explained everything that was going on and she agreed that we needed to do some further testings, and get him in for an MRI. She told us that first thing Tuesday morning she would send out an urgent request to a neurologist so we could get him in as soon as possible to find out what was going on. She told us that Matt should not be working or driving until we had clearance from a neurologist. She told us to come in the next day to get a bunch of blood work done. We went home feeling confident that we were in the right hands and that everything was going to get taken care of.We went in the next day and Matt got his blood work done. two days went by and we never heard anything from a neurologist or the clinic about any appointment date.
We were trying to be patient so I didn't call to bug them. Thursday morning Matt woke me up at 4:30 it was happening again so we quickly got packed up and went to emerge again. They ran the tests and still nothing was showing up. The doctor called Lethbridge and they told us there was nothing they could do? We explained our situation to the Doctor and that we were on an urgent request to see a neurologist and the doctor told us she would make sure that was being taken care of and that she was also going to get Matt on a cancellation list for an MRI. She told us that the clinic would call us first thing the next morning to follow up. So we went home and tried to get some sleep.
The clinic called and told us that nothing had been done regarding Matt seeing a neurologist the doctor never did send and urgent referral?! (are you kidding me) so that was 2 full days waisted! we weren't even on the neurologists radar. Then she told us she would make sure to send it off and that she would get him booked for an MRI and on a cancellation list and let us know. We went in and got Matt's x ray done to make sure he didn't have any metal in his eye so that he could get an MRI (he used to do welding) and then we went home.
We still hadn't heard anything from a neurologist or the clinic regarding even a date for anything so at 1 o clock on Friday i called up to the clinic again. The unit clerk I talked to told me that yes the referral had been sent to the neurologist but that nobody had followed up on it. So she told me she would for me before the end of the day. I then asked about the MRI she told me she couldn't find anything about an MRI?! (seriously?!?) but she promised me she would get him on the cancellation list and work on getting him an appointment she told me she would make sure to call me by the end of the day to let me know the progress.. She NEVER called me.
For any of you that really know me, it takes a LOT to make me mad. I am furious! we feel like nobody is taking this seriously and that nobody is taking responsibility for this. We keep being told things are urgent and are going to get done but they continue to not get done.
Friday night we drove up to High River to Matt's moms house, we stayed the night and Matt went into Calgary emerge Saturday morning. It took all day but he was able to see the proper people and to properly be taken care of. They did a contrast CT and still nothing is showing up. We talked with the neurologist and he is very confident that Matt is going to be just fine. He cannot say what is wrong but he is more than confident that Matt can go back to work and that he can drive. We were both very happy with this news and so happy that they were able to do the contrast CT to rule out some very scary things that this could have been! The Neurologist still wants Matt to get an MRI to make sure its not something the CT's missed. Unfortunately we may never know what went on. And hopefully it goes away. I honestly don't like those answers but if that's coming from a specialist there is nothing more we can do about it at this point. So now we wait until Matt can get in for an MRI and we hope that nothing is wrong!
My 25th birthday did not go as planned but I told Matt the best birthday present he could give me was to sit in the Foothills ER and get some answers, so after the full day in emerge we all went out to celebrate my birthday at the Keg. The best birthday present I received was hearing the neurologist say he could rule out aneurysm, stroke, cancer, bleeding etc. And that he was fairly certain Matt would be just fine. And that everything possible right now had been done. This meant our world was not going to get turned upside down and that my sweet heart could get back to doing what he loves.
Thank you so much to all of you for your prayers, thoughts, and kind words I did truly feel them and appreciated them so much! I will keep you updated with further news as we know but for now we are just so relieved and trying to enjoy this great news!! xoxo Ashylla
Monday, 30 March 2015
Trying to find balance in a crazy world
Hello friends it's been awhile! I can't even begin to try to summarize all that has happened since I last blogged, so instead I'll start fresh with what's been going on with us Smiths lately!
Lane turned 1 on the 1st!! I cannot believe my baby is 1. A week before he turned 1 he was hospitalized with RSV... RSV... You suck!! I don't think the feelings you feel watching your baby suffer can even be described.. Helples,s horrible, breaking, fear, hard, exhaustion, no control, anger, sick, love, hope, proud ,stress, wonder, peace, Terrible (are just some of them that come to mind) It makes me so empathetic for people who's children are seriously ill! I cannot even imagine! these past days have been some of the hardest! I'm so thankful for my loving husband who has been by our sides the entire time! Our loving family and friends who are thinking praying and sending so much love! I truly have felt that love and peace! I'm thankful for the nurses and specialists and doctors who have watched over my baby and aided in his recovery! No it is not fun to be woken up and have your baby poked and looked at every two hours but it is a small price to be payed for his recovery!! I feel so blessed and so thankful to be Lanes mommy and I am over joyed that he is turning the corner and feeling better!!! Xo
A year?! Lane is so smart! He copies us and picks up on everything! He will be walking in no time He is scaling everything! He is such a great eater and such a great naper and I am sooo happy to say he is officially sleeping through the night!! Yahoo life is great!! He is so content and sweet I am so lucky!! This year has flown by and I am so proud that he is mine hes so handsome and such a goof!! Here is a sweet story from daddy: Matt always gets up with Lane on the weekends he's the best! Anyways he said they were playing downstairs and Matt said Lane where's the football And sure enough Lane turned and spotted it in his play corner right away and then quickly crawled over and so proudly picked it up to show dad!! Wow What a smarty pants! He loves to pass the ball and he loves to chase the ball I think we have a little athlete on our hands!
Lately I have really been trying to find a balance in my life style! Like most moms post pregnancy bodies can be down right scary! I weighed a wopping 200lbs at the end of my pregnancy
I was horrified after giving birth at just how gross my stomach looked. (dont worry ladies it does go back) I found myself not ever wanted to get dressed because everything looked horrible. Nothing fit right but I was fortunate enough to loose most of my pregnancy weight while Breast feeding! It didn't happen all at once it was very gradual and I am now 13 months post baby and am no longer Breast feeding! So I am trying to find that balance of eating better, eating smaller portions and having a regular work out routine! And as all of you know trying to be a mommy, eating on the fly, and working around your little ones schedule sometimes this can seem impossible! But I am determined to find a healthy balance! ( wish me luck) I am now 145lbs and feeling great! I would LOVE to be in the 120's one day! (a girl can dream) but for now I am just so proud of myself for losing the weight and so proud of my body! Giving birth and being pregnant was the most amazing gift I was ever given! I would not trade that for the world! But here's to pushing my limits and living a healthy lifestyle!
I have also been really trying to make an effort in balancing mommy hood and being a good wife! This can be tricky also! Some days are easier than others and I am lucky enough to have an amazing husband who is very patient and understanding! I think now more than ever it is important to go on dates nights and to spend that time together once Lane is down for the night, even if it's just cuddling on the couch watching tv in silence or talking about our days. So Ya I'm working on being a better wife and finding balance for my boys.
Life is so beautiful! I have such a great support system! I hAve the best family, extended family and friends a girl could ask for! Xoxo Ash
Lane turned 1 on the 1st!! I cannot believe my baby is 1. A week before he turned 1 he was hospitalized with RSV... RSV... You suck!! I don't think the feelings you feel watching your baby suffer can even be described.. Helples,s horrible, breaking, fear, hard, exhaustion, no control, anger, sick, love, hope, proud ,stress, wonder, peace, Terrible (are just some of them that come to mind) It makes me so empathetic for people who's children are seriously ill! I cannot even imagine! these past days have been some of the hardest! I'm so thankful for my loving husband who has been by our sides the entire time! Our loving family and friends who are thinking praying and sending so much love! I truly have felt that love and peace! I'm thankful for the nurses and specialists and doctors who have watched over my baby and aided in his recovery! No it is not fun to be woken up and have your baby poked and looked at every two hours but it is a small price to be payed for his recovery!! I feel so blessed and so thankful to be Lanes mommy and I am over joyed that he is turning the corner and feeling better!!! Xo
A year?! Lane is so smart! He copies us and picks up on everything! He will be walking in no time He is scaling everything! He is such a great eater and such a great naper and I am sooo happy to say he is officially sleeping through the night!! Yahoo life is great!! He is so content and sweet I am so lucky!! This year has flown by and I am so proud that he is mine hes so handsome and such a goof!! Here is a sweet story from daddy: Matt always gets up with Lane on the weekends he's the best! Anyways he said they were playing downstairs and Matt said Lane where's the football And sure enough Lane turned and spotted it in his play corner right away and then quickly crawled over and so proudly picked it up to show dad!! Wow What a smarty pants! He loves to pass the ball and he loves to chase the ball I think we have a little athlete on our hands!
Lately I have really been trying to find a balance in my life style! Like most moms post pregnancy bodies can be down right scary! I weighed a wopping 200lbs at the end of my pregnancy
I was horrified after giving birth at just how gross my stomach looked. (dont worry ladies it does go back) I found myself not ever wanted to get dressed because everything looked horrible. Nothing fit right but I was fortunate enough to loose most of my pregnancy weight while Breast feeding! It didn't happen all at once it was very gradual and I am now 13 months post baby and am no longer Breast feeding! So I am trying to find that balance of eating better, eating smaller portions and having a regular work out routine! And as all of you know trying to be a mommy, eating on the fly, and working around your little ones schedule sometimes this can seem impossible! But I am determined to find a healthy balance! ( wish me luck) I am now 145lbs and feeling great! I would LOVE to be in the 120's one day! (a girl can dream) but for now I am just so proud of myself for losing the weight and so proud of my body! Giving birth and being pregnant was the most amazing gift I was ever given! I would not trade that for the world! But here's to pushing my limits and living a healthy lifestyle!
I have also been really trying to make an effort in balancing mommy hood and being a good wife! This can be tricky also! Some days are easier than others and I am lucky enough to have an amazing husband who is very patient and understanding! I think now more than ever it is important to go on dates nights and to spend that time together once Lane is down for the night, even if it's just cuddling on the couch watching tv in silence or talking about our days. So Ya I'm working on being a better wife and finding balance for my boys.
Life is so beautiful! I have such a great support system! I hAve the best family, extended family and friends a girl could ask for! Xoxo Ash
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